Lost in the Woods

I apologize for my lack of posting in these recent weeks. I have been a little swamped with dirt, fresh air, lots of trees, way too much sun for this ginger, and an obscene amount of bugs.
I am currently volunteering at Camp Ao-Wa-Kiya. A camp I grew up at and have fallen in love with over the years hence why I keep coming back :]. So, I have fallen victim to the lack of internet and sleep deprivation causing me to become lazy about posting...

I will definitely take a moment to say that this was and is a much needed break from my routine life. I needed the escape. I needed the time away to really reflect on my life and where I see it going. The truth is I have NO idea. None. Zip. Scary to think that I have no plan. I have no idea where I am supposed to be headed in life. I have been asked so many times this week and last what I plan on doing with my life. I am 25, and still have no idea what I am really wanting, or more accurately, what God is calling me to do with my life.

And you know what? I believe that is alright. It is ok not to know. If you have it all figured out, that's awesome!! If you don't, that is awesome too. It is alright to be unsure. To enjoy the time of silence and confusion as weird as that sounds. I know for me, I am thankful for my job because it is paying my loans off. Do I wish that I was able to spend my summer completely here at camp? Well, yes I do. I would love to be able to dedicate my time here doing something I am passionate about, but that isn't what God has planned for me at this time in my life. That is something that I am learning right now. That I need to be ok with maybe getting a no sometimes rather than the answer I want. I have to be willing to have a detour happen in my life as well as still being able to give 100% of my effort to it. As if it was exactly what I wanted it to be, thus me putting everything I have in it. Things won't always go our way; shocking revelation right? The world keeps spinning. Who knew?

I think sometimes we need to just get lost. We need to escape of this reality that we think we own and are needed too much in to leave for a brief second. ESCAPE! Take a break. Take a moment. Step back. I don't know what other phrases I could give you before it clicks. Find some fresh air and breath deep. We all need to find that something that we are passionate about or just find what we are really wanting out of life. I know this may be a huge step for some of you. It definitely will be for me. I have found a new found fear and excitement in discovering what it is that my life holds in the coming month, year, and decade. Yes, I will be afraid. I have no shame in admitting that. I won't lie and say that I will be completely confident in my abilities. I think being afraid is completely in the norm of life. It helps to see things more clearly in some ways because, for me especially, I am thinking completely about what is in front of me. And because of that I am thinking through things more than I probably would if I was confident in doing something. You don't have to be fearless to accomplish great things; just brave enough to do them despite being afraid.

So are you ready?
Ready to get lost?
Ready to embrace some fear?

Come with me and get lost in the woods.

Blessings,
Ali